... Phir Dekhiye

Aankhon Mein Jisaki Koyi Toh Khaab Hai
Khush Hai Wahi Jo Thoda Betaab Hai
Jindagi Mein Koyi Aarju Kijiye, Phir Dekhiye
Honto Pe Jisake Koyi Toh Geet Hai
Woh Haare Bhi Toh Usaki Hi Jeet Hai
Dil Mein Jo Geet Hai Gunguna Lijiye, Phir Dekhiye

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Khaab Buniye Jara, Geet Suniye Jara
Phul Chuniye Jara, Phir Dekhiye

People who knew me during my school and college days will find it difficult to believe what I have become now. How MUCH I want from my life? From my career. How desperate I am to create a niche for myself and not get lost in the crowd of mediocrity. And how desperately I want to do it on my own terms. I don't understand complacence. I probably just refuse to. At the cost of losing my peace of my mind ever so often.

This afternoon I suddenly felt all my worries going up in the air. I may have to work harder, fight it out, constanly look for options where none exist because the joy of finding that elusive option is incomparable... And when I go to sleep at night, I can look back and feel like I have done something worthwhile. And when that feeling is missing, I lose sleep and peace and happiness over it.

I may seem like an extremist (and from what I know of myself, I am really not that). But that's me. I know that it's because there are still people who live by the book that make the economy stable enough for mavericks like me to create a niche. Today I have created my niche (more on this later).

I am ecstatic. Because yet again, living life on my own terms has yielded benefits that even those who live by the book will understand. Yayyy!!! :D :D :D